college

 i have no fucking idea. I didnt think college would be this stressful mentally. but this is so damaging im actually done. the way i hate everything about myself right now, i dont even remember why i used to like myself. like i just cant find anything likeworthy about me. why is it so difficult to find some good friends like theres so many people but i feel so undesirable. even by myself. and the number of beautiful girls, i get a new insecurity everytime i go out and its fucking irritating. i genuinely cant believe it when people want to hang out with me, im asking myself if its because they feel pity or if its because they actually want to. like imagine my confidence level. and the one person i like in college is going through so much shit