the calm after a tornado

 things are good. I have nothing to do. I wake up late, sleep late, eat whenever, watch shows all day. I get ready occasionally, take pictures, post and feel good about myself. I almost completed a crochet tube top. Its cute, i need to complete it. I can't wait for college. I've also been feeling extremely lonely because of all the hopeless romantic dramas I've been watching. Haven't been talking to any friends, not in touch with many. I made so many plans after all those exams. Now time is going by so fast, nothing seems to slow down for me to start enjoying. I want to buy books to read. I want to color my hair black blue, I want to get my nails done. I want to get new cute clothes. Pretty sure my parents will make all these happen in a while. I'm going to get my first phone as well. The one i use now is my dad's old phone. I don't know which phone to get. Can't choose between I phone and Samsung. Shall i settle for google pixel? No idea. I'm going to need a new laptop as well for college. All this expenditure makes me not want to count the amount. I want to buy a blow drier as well. If any of the readers have extra money and don't know what to do with it, I'd happily assist you while you spend it on me. Listening to my old music taste, feeling the same things that they made me feel when i first heard them. I've also been getting a lot of biker reels on my feed. Suddenly I'm into something different. I'm listening to 'From the start' by Laufey. I miss shoulder dancing to this song so much. I'm making up delusional scenarios in my mind which keep me temporarily happy and blushing. All innocent, promise😆☝. I should sing more and post more. I should also be productive and have fun. I will now go and play Roblox. It is productive as long as I'm having fun. The only thing pissing me off is Spotify because I don't have premium. It's peaceful.